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“And where was I before the day that I first saw your lovely face?”

The only relevance the title of this post has to all this is, I love that song. 

Now…

If you are going to say something to the effect of, “Things aren’t where they should be with us. Let’s really work hard to change that” Then of course, you try the best you know how to rekindle the friendship or whatever it is. And the other person, does absolutely nothing. Do you think that you can just patronize me by saying, “Oh yeah, let’s change that.” and expect everything to be back to where you supposedly want it? Spoiler alert, it doesn’t work.

Anyway, I’ve ranted enough. Headed  to the grandparents for some good time with family and some golf for the weekend.

On the bright side of things, things are going pretty well. Not all that much to complain about. Also. I will be back in Tulsa in exactly a month. YESSSSSSSSSSSS.

Done! Except not really…

I finished the first of two summer sessions at UTA today. Done with Biology and Accounting. Biology=Not my thing. Accounting I kinda liked. Now for business calculus.

Today was an alright day. Nothing too exciting happened. I did fall asleep for a nap around 5:45 and woke up at 7:00 and literally woke up and thought it was tomorrow morning. Guess I’m pretty exhausted.

Going to see the HP premiere with Sarah Rutledge on Thursday night! So excited for that. She got Harry Potter glasses for us to wear. Should be a good time. 

Anyway the important number, 35 days.

Can it be tomorrow?

Before I begin, can I start over?

I think I’m going to start doing this more often. I miss getting my own thoughts down somewhere.

Anyway, I’m sick of home. Of course there are parts of it, like being with my family, that I’ve really enjoyed. And then there were parts of it that I thought I would enjoy. Friends. But the whole friends thing? Isn’t really working out. I’m starting to realize how few good friends I had in high school. I can count on one hand the people I have seen from high school. And the worst part is, I don’t know if I am glad or upset about that. Not to knock any people from high school, not trying to do that at all. I think I’ve just moved on from all of this. Everyday I wake up and wonder how many more days I have to go through the motions of this summer. Wake up, go to class, come home. Repeat. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of people who claim to be friends and don’t even bother to talk to me or ask how my summer is going. What I’ve been up to. How my first year was. Whatever. I’m not looking for pity. I never will because I hate it when people play the “woe is me” card.

I just want to go back to Tulsa and have that be my home. Those people be my “home” friends. That be my life.

37 days….

Anonymous asked: hey cowboy, you don't need to go deleting this bad boy, tumblr is fantastic for anything you need it to be. especially a way to get yer lolz

Ha who is this

I don’t understand

Why I felt the need to have this? Was my life so bad that I had to share it with the world? Prolly gonna delete it soon..

Change.

How is it that you used to make me the happiest I’ve ever been. Seeing your face, hearing your voice, listening to your laugh, looking into your eyes, I was on cloud nine. Couldn’t believe that you were talking to me. Kevin. Just Me.

And now?

Even seeing your name anywhere makes me sick and makes me regret everything. Every. Single. Moment. I wasted spent all my time worrying about making you happy. Not letting a single thing hurt you, as best I could.

But like I said, it’s time to let go. Get up, and move foward.

Thanks for the memories….I guess.

Dear Happiness,

I’m on my way.

knitcat asked: I'm so excited to see you this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
Not really a question, but still!! Super excited!

Me too! See you in about 15 hours! :)

Congratulations

You got what you wanted. I’m done. Peace. I don’t need your immaturity anymore. I never needed it. I just thought I did.

I’m ready..

To be happy. I push people away constantly because of my stupidity…it’s my own fault, and I think that’s the worst part. Gotta try and keep a level head and keep on. Try being the operative word…

“Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they’re your heart
And you know you were their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm ‘her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?” 

It’s about time for something to go right. I hope.